I had a little adventure. It was a journey in search of something unknown – it was a journey to look for what is beyond. In the middle of nowhere this ship called “CAS” welcomed me. I climb aboard and the adventure begun. Throughout the journey I have met countless persons – some who’ve welcomed me, some who I have welcomed, some who stayed until now, some who have gone on their individual paths. Without all these people this journey will never be such an adventure.
We have sailed through calm seas but sometimes we hear the roar of thunder just before the deadlines. We sailed multiple times through strong winds, through lightning, and sometimes in the dark. There were times that the sea were so relaxed but then we will experience a large wave that would wash all over us. The weather was sometimes unpredictable but we will still sail ahead.
But then there were those times that I am most thankful for, when I hear the laughter that echoes despite the madness of the sea. The joy that told us to keep going.
In all these twisted times, there is a light that told me to keep going. That is the light that will never lose its brightness even in the dark, even in the storm, it will continue to shine. To guide the people who will be left behind.
I can only make it this far, but truth be told, I never expected to last this long either. But I am glad that I did. I just want to say thank you and I am sorry for all my shortcomings. And thank you, I am blessed to have known all of them.
“Why do you go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra colors. And the people will see you there differently, too. Coming back to where you started is never the same as not leaving.” Terry Pratchett, A Hat Full of Sky
“You never leave someone behind; you take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind.”
So yeah. After one a half weeks passed, it is finally sinking in. I know I had not bid a proper farewell – what with all those things that emerged on my last day. But I can’t let this note go unposted. It is not easy to go out of your comfort zone but I was still glad that I did it. Life begins at the end of your comfort zone. In all honesty, being there for almost four years – it was like I was studying in college and now that I’ve already graduated: I still can’t quite believe it.
But one thing I promised to myself: that I will go on giving my 101% in everything that I do. Even if I don’t know what the outcome will be. I will give my all, just like what passionate people do. The problem with me is that I can’t be unsure. I wanted sure, I wanted safe, I wanted comfortable. But all of that is going to end here. I will embark on a new journey. So, whose ship now am I going to climb? Or will I build my own ship? I just gotta do it. I will no longer just put one feet into the water to test if it is hot or cold. I will plunge with both feet into the water and to hell with whatever happens. I will accept the outcome. I still don’t know what I want to be and I still don’t know how I’m gonna do it. But then I have all the things that I want to do. And I will start from there. I don’t really know what’s going to happen but for now, I am going to embrace uncertainty.
“Life must be spent doing something that makes you come alive.”